What Nearly Dying Taught Me - Vancouver Glamour and Boudoir Photographer Chelsey Luren Dixon
I wrote this post back in March. I was very leery to share this post. Getting so vulnerable is something that is uncomfortable for me. But I felt that I needed to share it with all of you.
So without further ado...
Last week I had a near death experience.
I'd been very sick with the flu and was very congested from it. Then one evening last week I had a coughing fit and the congestion was so intense that it actually closed up my throat. I couldn't talk and I couldn't breathe, so my husband Tyler quickly rushed me to the hospital.
I have asthma, so I'm well versed in what it feels like to be unable to breathe. But this was FAR more extreme than anything I'd experienced in a LONG time/possibly ever.
The lack of oxygen was so intense and I was fading fast. Tyler had to help me walk down the stairs and help me get into the car. As soon as we got to the hospital I was immediately put in the ICU. They put me on oxygen, gave me steroids, adrenaline and I was hooked up to an IV.
Thankfully after a few hours I was stabilized and could finally breathe unassisted. I didn't have to spend the night in the emergency, and was discharged from the hospital.
Throughout my life, I've had a few instances that were near death experiences, though, I've not had any sort of health scare like that in years.
Now that I'm on the mend and out of the thick of it, I'm actually so grateful for the experience. It has put everything into perspective for me.
The next morning I began to ask myself a whole string of questions:
Am I living my life the way I want?
Why can I not have everything I dream of and more?
Why do I mentally beat myself to a pulp?
I have put into place a string of limiting beliefs and blocks around my world. These beliefs are ones that I have been working on breaking through for months.
It finally sunk in that all of the blocks I have built for myself; around my business and money, and the stupid stories I tell myself about my value and worth, are COMPLETE AND UTTER GARBAGE.
How dare I waste my life believing anything other than abundance and possibility and wealth?
It made me have an even deeper appreciation, gratitude and sense of value around the work that I do.
Had the worst of happened to me, the only thing that my loved ones would have remaining of me are the photos. The portraits I have invested in are the most valuable possessions that my family and I own. And that is true of both now and in the future - they only grow in value over time.
In turn, the experiences and memories that I offer to each of my clients are not just ones that they will cherish. They are moments and experiences that are going to be passed on to those they love for generations to come.
What are your reasons for not having had your portrait taken yet? I can guarantee you that any excuse you have given yourself is not going to be worth it if the worst ever happens and your loved ones don't have anything other than a blurry selfie to remember your by.
Don't wait until you almost bite the dust to change your beliefs. Don't wait until you've almost kicked the bucket to have your portrait taken. You are so worth it.
XOXO, Chelsey Luren Dixon